Awww

I don't know why!

Feh...

Everyone thinks I’m so strong, but I’m just determined to keep pluggin'. I don't know how strong I am--really, I’d rather not have to do it! I mean, steel pins here, “amputation” there, procedures, devices, needles of all sizes, stuck in so many places. And the paperwork! This sucks.
Nothing is, or ever will be, as it was before stage IV. I’m okay with that; I just wish I could have come to some points of realization and growth without so much pain and inconvenience. That’s not likely, though, for I am a stubborn and stiff-necked people. Obviously, big change for me starts with a slap in the face. Followed by another. Then a few more.

Prrettyyy...

Here it is, the ninth of October and I completely neglected September. Darn. I guess I don't have much of interest to write about! Chemo can make it a bit difficult to focus on the big questions that usually occupy my mind, like "Why am I here?" and "Why is anything here?" and "Why is there more matter than antimatter?" and "Why won't my dishes wash themselves?" I'm so easily distracted! Oh well, I'm done for today--there are pretty colors on the TV!
I have had some profound thoughts, now if I can just remember what they were...something about God and symphonies, I think...