Feh...

Everyone thinks I’m so strong, but I’m just determined to keep pluggin'. I don't know how strong I am--really, I’d rather not have to do it! I mean, steel pins here, “amputation” there, procedures, devices, needles of all sizes, stuck in so many places. And the paperwork! This sucks.
Nothing is, or ever will be, as it was before stage IV. I’m okay with that; I just wish I could have come to some points of realization and growth without so much pain and inconvenience. That’s not likely, though, for I am a stubborn and stiff-necked people. Obviously, big change for me starts with a slap in the face. Followed by another. Then a few more.